Archive for May, 2008
Here’s a quote I’ve noticed that I live my life by…
“Discipline imposed from the outside eventually defeats when it is not matched by desire from within.”–Dawson Trotman
Do you agree with this? Is desire stronger than discipline? Should you force something on yourself if you don’t desire it? Discuss!
What is Wisdom?
I’ve been reading through the book of Proverbs over the last few months, picking it apart, really, and I’ve discovered new depths to the meaning of the word.
What is Wisdom?
Well, to fear the Lord is only the beginning of Wisdom, so I can only imagine what the rest of Wisdom must be like…
During my study of the word I decided that Wisdom is the desire to do God’s will above our own.
Essentially, it is saying: “Okay, God. You know what’s best and I trust You. Your will be done. No matter what.”
Do you agree? Are you living a life of Wisdom?
Contentment. It is a word so foreign in our culture that we don’t really understand what it looks like in our life. Is there ever really any contentment?
I could say I am content right now:
- New and growing relationship with an amazing Man of God
- Family is healthy and happy.
- Understanding my relationship with Christ with new meaning
- SWITCH is taking a turn into a new season (depth in student and leader relationships)
…and yet, it would be easy to be discontent with how content I am. I’ll often ask myself, feeling a bit guilty: Is it right to be this happy? Isn’t there something I need to be agonizing over? Seeking God about? Worrying about?
A wise woman once told me to look at the scriptures: Psalms is full of agonizing, questions, doubts, frustrations… it is also full of praise, worship, thanksgiving (those times when everything was going great in King David’s life)
So I’m reminded today, to be content in my contentment. To praise. Worship. Give thanks.
What about you?
A lot of you might not know, but I have kept a daily journal since I was 15 years old. That’s right, folks… I have everyday of my life on paper since I was 15. (That’s either really awesome, or really crazy.)
- Journaling one day takes 40 minutes! If I get behind (which happens a lot!) those 40 minutes really add up, adding stress and even feelings of dread!
- Journaling used to help me process things, make decisions, helped me see things in more black and white. For the last year I’ve learned to process through talking things out, gaining wise advice, and using the thing between my shoulders more than the thing in my chest when making decisions.
- My parents concern when I last talked about giving up the addiction—I mean habit of journaling—was that I would stop writing. But with you guys keeping me accountable I don’t think that will happen. In fact, I think I will have more time to devote to blogs and book writing if journaling was out of the equation.
- Lastly, is that I really think it has become a sort of addiction. Who’s really going to care if I stop journaling? Who said I had to journal everyday? Who put that restriction on me? No one, but me.
Last Sunday I ran the half marathon with the Oklahoma City Memorial Run. At the seventh mile I was about to quit! My lungs strained to drag in air. My legs ached with the constant pounding of concrete. I wasn’t thinking clearly.
If I should die before I wake
It’s ’cause you took my breath away
Losing you is like living in a world with no air