Archive for May, 2009
I walked through life believing this lie for far too long. As I think back on it now, I’m shocked at how my thoughts had such a strong effect on my actions. I believed I was fat, therefore, I would overeat, not exercise, or at least cut corners if I did.
My perception of myself became my reality, (read that again.) and I plunged down a destructive spiral that I felt powerless to stop.
Until I realized. I was not fat. I was merely stuck in a fat person’s body. Anna, the real Anna was not this overweight, depressed girl who didn’t see a way out. She was joyful, full of life, full of love, an encourager, energetic! But stuck. How was I going to push through? How was I going to become on the outside, what I knew I was on the inside?
The answer: TRUTH.
For too long, I lived in this lie: “You’re fat, therefore you’re not whole. No one likes you. No one wants to be around you.” I thought it was true, so it became true. But once I started changing my thinking, other things started to change as well. I realized I was living a lie, so to overcome that lie, I had to find truth. And where better to find truth, than the Truth itself?
I dove into the scriptures, finding truths that directly countered the lies I believed about myself.
I’m fat, I’m ugly—> “The King is enthralled with my beauty, honor Him for He is your Lord!”–Psalm 45:11
No one likes me, no one wants to be around me—> “I have chosen you to be my special treasure.”–Deuteronomy 7:6
Any time the lie would hit, I would have a truth ready to do battle. It was hard at first. Sometimes it felt like I would take one step forward, and two steps back. But I trudged forward, knowing I had to change my thinking. Pretty soon, believing truth became like second nature to me. I walked in the confidence of His truth, and soon the lies slowly fell away, and with them, the weight. I slowly became on the outside what I knew I was on the inside. His truth changed me from the inside out! Now, I continue to walk in truth, doing battle against the lies that come my way.
What about you? Do you believe the truth about yourself, or are you spiraling down a deadly cycle you feel powerless to stop? Maybe you don’t even struggle with weight, like I did, but you do face an equally difficult lie, an insecurity that holds you back. Do you want to be free? The truth will set you free.
Activities to consider:
1. Write down the top five characteristics that describe you. Ex: Joyful, encourager, energetic, etc. This is who you are! (If you have a difficult time with this, ask your husband, a trusted friend or relative.)
2. Write down the top three lies your believe about yourself.
3. Find three scriptures that directly counter the lies you believe. Memorize them.
When I was in the 8th grade a “friend” of mine used those words to cut me. Not knowing what else to do I threw an equally hurtful cut down in his face. Being a guy, he took it as more of a joke than anything else.
But I didn’t. I remembered it. From that moment on. I remembered it.
I carried those words around for years. Wondering who else thought them. Wondering who else was saying them under their breath, or to a friend once my back was turned. Those words were the filter of most of my interactions with people. I was never really able to be myself, because in my mind the question kept bouncing around like a little imp needing attention: “Do they think I’m fat?”
It wasn’t until much later in life, that I realized I was living under a lie. No, the lie was not “You’re Fat!”–that was actually true. The lie that I’d been believing for years was that, “I’m fat, and therefore I’m not whole.” I’m missing something. I’m not a true person.–Those are lies.
Realizing that I was living under lies was half the battle but it took me another few years to find out how to overcome them…
“Answer me, O Lord, answer me, so these people will know that you, O Lord, are God, and that you are turning their hearts back again.” –1 Kings 18:37
This is my prayer for the students at the Northwest campus! I hope you will join me in asking God to show Himself to the students in our world!
We cannot ask God to answer us, if we’re not asking him anything!
Show Yourself, O Lord!
How bad do you want it?
This phrase has marked my journey for the last four years. I now realize it is the question that holds most people back from the things they want the most.
I’ve often heard people say things like:
“I want to lose this extra weight.”
“I want to get that promotion at work.”
“I want to go back and finish school.”
“I want to find my soul mate.”
“I want to fulfill my dream.”
I hear these phrases often, but just as often, nothing happens. Here’s the question I want to ask when I hear those phrases.
How bad do you want it?
Can you see it? Can you feel it? Does the lack of progress make you angry? Can you taste it? Can you hear it? Do you want it? Do you WANT it?
How bad do you want it? The answer to this question will take you to your next step. So…
…How bad do you want it?